I don't deserve love or anything?

I just feel so pathetic and depressed. Ive never had a relationship with any guy in my life and I feel like I never will because I will never be good enough for them. I feel like I will never make him happy. I feel like if I did marry someone he would not love me and I wouldnt be able to give him what he wanted. Like if he called me beautiful I wouldn't believe it. Yes I have severly low self-esteem, but I just feel this way. I mean no guy has ever liked me and its not even about a guy its also people. I can never make friends. Its so hard for me. I try but it doesnt work. I mean my family doesnt even love me. They want to get rid of me. Ive never felt "love" before ever or any kind of it. Maybe some people will never experience it and I think I'm one of them. So how do I cope? I mean I've accepted it and I just want to live alone when I'm I graduate and get a stable job. I'm really lonely and nobody will probably ever love me but it's okay. I just want to know how do you cope alone.